The number one love-hate relationship in my life at the moment is the Internet. Me and the Internet. We've spent a lot of quality time together over the years. But this week... he was making my life miserable. He's been up. He's been down. He's been faithful. He's been playing around. He's been listening. He's been ignoring my questions and commands (mainly those "ipconfig" commands). But then, 30 seconds later, he'll turn around and respond to everything and everything I tell him.
So what's the deal?!
I love the internet. Because it keeps me connected to the outside world. But I hate the internet because it sucks my time and makes me feel a bit stressed when he doesn't work as he should and everyone else on the compound complains to me about him.
But for now, thanks to my faithful back-up team up North and in the UK (I'm fondly referring to them now as "the Andies"), we're back up and running. And hopefully will stay that way. But I realized that it's been giving me quite a bit of stress lately - I think mainly because it's time that I didn't "budget" for in my last few days here!
Yes, that's right. I said, "My last few days here!" I leave this town on Monday. And won't be back for another 3 months! I'm going to a rat free land full of ice and snow. So I'm afraid this blog will be rather boring for a few months. Sorry 'bout that.
But it brings me to my other current love-hate relationship. I love it that I get to go home and see my family and my friends and my church and just be in my place. I love it that I will get to wear different clothes, drive my little car, hang out in the Second Cup with a good book that I chose for free at the library. I love it that I will be able to walk down the street without people yelling at me because I stick out like a sore white (well, actually, normally rather pink and sweaty while walking down the street) thumb. I love it that I will get to meet my baby nephew for the first time ever and hang out with my other nephews who are all growing up into such amazing young men!
But I hate it that I have to leave my life here for a while. I hate it that so many of my dear friends are going to be gone by the time I get back (they're also moving on to different pastures - some maybe greener, some maybe less green!). I hate it that I'll miss out on so much here while I'm away. I just really wish I could be in both places at once. Or that Canada was just a bit closer to here, so I could, say, go home on the weekends and live here during the week. You know, like having a cottage at the lake that you go to for refreshment and rest, but close enough to commute to your other life.
Tonight I had such a good time with my friends. I should have taken some photos tonight, but I must admit, I depended on Annamarie to be the photographer - otherwise, I'd post some photos of us all stuffing our faces with chicken, guacamole, and the most amazing mango cake and even home made ice cream! But most of all, we just had a really good time being together. I like those people. It's a bit tough to find good friends in a place like this - so many transitions, and everyone is so busy and wrapped up in their work. So I feel extra specially blessed to have found so many good people who I really have come to love. So I know I'm going to miss them when I go. And when I come back, everything will be different again.
So you see, I'm already thinking about "transitions"! I don't usually start thinking about it until I get on the plane, but this time, I've got a whole week to think about it - in one week, I will be just stepping on the plane in Uganda, bound for London, and then for home. I leave this place in 5 days, spend a day with my friend in Uganda, and then, it's on the plane home!
Phew, it's going to be a week, I can already tell!
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